Many people hate me for being stubborn, failed to be a good listener or being all defensive. I admit that I live in a world where am trained to be all protective and don't let others to hurt myself. Even my closest friends just smiled and shook their head when they see the way I behave. I certainly cannot blame entirely to how I was brought up. I don't come from a wealthy family, I used to wear eldest sisters and eldest brother clothing. Because my parents cannot afford to waste money on our luxurious needs. To be honest, I envied my friend who had a week vacation in London or all across the world when I was young. Or lied to my friends that I had mobile phones at home. As I grew up, I stopped living in a world that I created. The truth really hurts. But not everything in my life is bad. I was one of the top student in my primary school. Even so, I don't have much girl friends coz they really dislike me (my attitudes perhaps). Yes, I was a tomboy before, am proud of it.
Anyways, I am 22 years old now. I thanked God for all the blessings He gave me. My life might be still a little upsetting. But when am in my worst day in my life, there are many good things happened right after :) I failed my GCSE 'O' Level, scored really well for GCSE 'A' Level. Granted a scholarship from the Ministry of Education. I am very grateful :)
I have my new life and friends in Newcastle. Life has been different there. People just treat me differently. I feel like my closest friends (that have known me for years) were there for me, of course, there is no way any of you substitute each other ever. I learned a lot from people who loves me the most to people who just want to kill me! I gain and lose some friends for the past 2 years.
Trust me when I say this to you:
"You need more than a day to get to know me, to hate or love me. Yes, I might look not listening to what you were suggesting or saying. In reality, I am analyzing if I should accept, reject or add to what you were saying. Am not one easy person to deal with just like this character in Devil Wears Prada (the ruthless and cynical Miranda Priestly). I might look so tough but in reality, I am very soft and vulnerable in the centre. Get to the core if you really want to know me :)
