Looking back

I rememember what I used to wear before when I was young. I had this baggy clothes and pants, it was not even mine. We could not afford anything expensive -- we are not from a rich family. Life was just good and just enough. I still remember wearing this Sailormoon short pants and one of my eldest brother shirt. As I grew up, everything changes. I am a rebel. I did not know what really got into me. Since then I just changed, music that I listen to, my style, the accessories, the way I talk etc. I am becoming more to rock 'n roll -- don't care any shit in this life. Whatever opportunity or chances in front of me, I will grab it, doesn't matter if it is beyond my capability!

Linkin Park -- that's the first Rock band I listened to, til now I still love listening to them! I listen to other bands as well, I express myself very well with songs instead of verbally...

I don't know, but I sort of feel a bit funny. Shadow of the day by Linkin Park illustrate these feelings the best :) I have learned so much for the past 22 years and I still think I got so much more to learn! It is true, we never get enough of anything, we are such a greedy creature.

Who am I?

I do not really like my real name. I preferred to be called Bebs most of the times. The reason why I am not a big fan of my real name is that i don't look like my name. Okay, yes it does not make sense at all but yeah, peoplejust frowned at me when I told them my real name. Odd. I love changing my hair colour from black to light brown to golden brown to blonde to red. Well, I sort of colour my hair almost every single month, provided I got the budget for it. Within couple of months to go I WILL go bald. Mom will freak out :o

I always wanted to be a designer, I love colours, fabrics, and designs! I mean, I think all of you wishes you are the designer for that dress that you just spent on! I do :D Currently I am studying marketing with specialist route in Marketing Communications. This probably my next favorite course after designing. I thought doing marketing course would help me with my own businesses soon. Not many believe that I could make it. Not to be vain or proud of myself -- many people do not even have faith in me when I was doing my A Level either. Now, I am in Newcastle University sponsored by the MOE - Alhamdulillah.

There is nothing wrong to dream even though you are labelled as failure! But dreams won't ever come true if there is no actions and prayers to god (to those who has religion). I still remember those times going to UK education exhibition by British Council (If I am not mistaken) and wishes I will really fly to UK and REALLY walk in the snow. I did, and still do! next year will be my last year :D It has been a really great experience being in the UK -- though nothing beats home, where all the familiar places and people are there for me :)

"This is not the end, this is just the beginning..." -- I don't remember where I get this quote from, but it really helps me a lot when everything in my life seems to fail, if one thing does not happen, it is not the end of the world just yet.

Love,
Bebs